glacier tea/soul tea
music of my childhood ♥
dealing with a chronic illness is really hard, really depressing and really isolating sometimes (lol surprise). healing from emotional trauma is the same. i don’t know if i can even really get into it all, but i have been working hard on healing from both.
what i did want to document is that for the first time in years i am able to go outside like a semi-normal person, watch the seasons change up close instead of from a window. going out to the grocery store alone, without help, going to a bar with a friend for a drink, going for a walk around my neighborhood, these outings are like traveling around the world for me at this point in my life. it feels amazing. i try not to take anything for granted.
i am still always painting. my paintings feel very dark to me but i think it is easy to sometimes dismiss them as sweet. sometimes my paintings get a little sweet looking, maybe as a way to cope with how bad i can feel. this isn’t a sad thing to me though, quite the opposite. i’m glad i have something good to pour myself into when i am stuck inside so often, it keeps my life and my ability to be kind opened up.
i am stuffing chamomile and lavender flowers into my hot bath every night. i make tea and avocado toast every morning. i wear gold glitter on my nails. i have mundane and comforting rituals and make weird things. i feel a kind of raw glow, kind of like the feeling you get in calm, cold, morning light. i feel thankful for everything.
Franny is distrustful of the pumpkin.
good for my heart.
i really miss utah in the fall. i miss the cold rivers, canyons, all the color and the dusty apple orchards.
i just put a fresh batch of spell books up in my shop! let’s get witchy.
☆.。.:* lil shop ☆.。.:*